this is long, but please read. im pretty scared.

[psycho*]

Ok, I have been feeling really bad the last three days. It started Tuesday night. My youth group went to TBN (long story, most Christians know what it is) because our pastor was going to be on tv that night. Well, I just hung around with a good friend of mine the whole night and we were laughing and having a good time. Well, suddenly I began to feel light-headed and like I was floating in the air (but I was still on the ground). I had was reading a book and when I tried to focus on the words, my eyes got blury and everything. My friend noticed that I looked sick, and she asked what was wrong. I told her and she said "what have you been smoking?" and Im like, "Haha. Im not high, I just feel like I am." She was like, "that doesn't make sense" and Im like, "neither does how I feel." so yeah, the "floaty feeling" stopped and then thirty minutes later, when we were walking down some stairs, I felt it again. I thought I was going to pass out. One of my guy friends was with me then, and he helped me down the stairs and I sat down, but it felt like I wasn't even sitting. It stopped again, and then a few hours later when we were at Wendys, I felt it twice (like 15 minutes apart from each other). When I got in the car to go home, I felt as if I were going to pass out again. Then after I got home, I got online for awhile, then went to my room and to draw. When I was looking at the pictures I was drawing, I felt as if I were not sitting on anything. Like I was floating in the air. I had the same feelings part of the day yesterday, and a little right now. I dont know whats wrong. I think its because I dont eat much. I have serious weight issues (i am so fat and exercising wont work cuz Ive tried and I get fatter..but thats another story). I ate two meals tuesday, one yesterday, and ate one meal today. Sometimes I become all bulemic (s/p?) and throw up on purpose, so maybe thats why I feel like this? I dont know, but its starting to creep me out. So if y'all could pray for me (and for those of you who dont pray, just think about me or whatever) Id really appreciate it. Im scared to tell anyone because if its because I dont eat and throw up, then I will get yelled at, and I dont need that. I tried to tell Jeremy last night, but 1) i was too scared and 2) he wouldn't listen to me....which isn't unusual. I want to tell someone but I can't, so Im telling yall. well, sry this was so long.

[sex ees gud]

this could be 1 of several things, but your eating habits is what's jumping out at me right away.

your light headedness could be that you aren't eating well at all, or that you don't drink enough water. Do you drink a lot of water? Eat three meals a day, or at least 2 and a snack. If you are concerned of your weight, know that eating less meals a day can actually make you GAIN weight because your metabolism goes into starvation mode and retains all the fat you eat. If you want to lose weight, eat salads, stir fries, try some vegitarian foods, they are generally healthy. Look online for healthy eating choices. Stay away from fast foods and microwavable foods (they tend to have a lot of fats). Not eating is about the worst thing you can do. It screws ur stomach up and can give you various health problems and actually can make you gain weight.

if nothing else, consult your doctor :\

[Soulfire79]

Sounds like you have an eating disorder. You need to talk to your doctor immediately! Your eating disorder is nothing to be ashamed of. It needs to be addressed and dealt with.

[psycho*]

1) i cant even tell jeremy about this, much less some dumb doctor. (lacey, jeremy, and i have discovered that doctors are evil and all three of us have made our minds up never to go to one unless we are pregnant..which means jeremy is never going to a doctor....lol)

2) i am a vegetarian. my parents drag me to chick-fil-a with them EVERYDAY. I keep telling them that i dont eat there and they freak out. I dont eat anything when I go there becuase i dont support animal killers. different story. anyway, i used to cut so if my parents find out that i have an eating disorder, then they will send me to the asylum...which is where i should probably be.

well, thanks for your help.
ps: i dont drink mucj water because the water my mom buys is some stuff that tastes like its not filtered. its nasty. Whenever I go to Wal*Mart, I get Aquafina and drink it. I also drink propel. Im trying to get my dad to buy Aquafina for me. I will drink alot of it. It tastes good.

[sex ees gud]

1) i cant even tell jeremy about this, much less some dumb doctor. (lacey, jeremy, and i have discovered that doctors are evil and all three of us have made our minds up never to go to one unless we are pregnant..which means jeremy is never going to a doctor....lol)

2) i am a vegetarian. my parents drag me to chick-fil-a with them EVERYDAY. I keep telling them that i dont eat there and they freak out. I dont eat anything when I go there becuase i dont support animal killers. different story. anyway, i used to cut so if my parents find out that i have an eating disorder, then they will send me to the asylum...which is where i should probably be.

not all doctors are evil. Believe me, i've spent 60% of my life with them. My medical history is....well it takes up 2 binders or more...:\ lol i'm sick a lot

secondly, you have a house, no? I'm not saying eat at chik-fil-a, but at least eat something when you go home. There's plenty of things you can cook at home.

thirdly, i doubt your parents would send you to an asylum. Consult a therapist, they can help you. But you need to find a way to get better, because if you just ignore this it will only get worse and you will wind up very sick and will have to go to the hospital.

[psycho*]

thereapists are pure evil. i cant stand them. they are worse than doctors. I hate the fact that people have to pay other people, who fall asleep anywa y, to listen to them. If so called "friends" would get over themselves and actually be a friend, then shrinks wouldn't be needed. This is a pathetic world. There are no shrinks in Heaven, i tell u. Anyway, my mom NEVER goes to the store, and when she does she only buys enough food for about two meals for 4 days. Thats it. She doesn't go back for like, a month, so Im left with old bananas and some very sugary cereal my dad eats. There is never anything to eat in my house becuase my parents always go out to eat. My dad is going to help me make a grocery list and help me plan a budget so when I get out on my own I will actually have food to eat. I am beginning to think its my mom's fault I never eat. If she does fix somthing at home (very rare) she fixes fried okra, fried squash, and other stuff that is fried and not good for you. Im getting very tierd of it, and I am hungry all the time. Yet, I dont eat. When we go out, we go to the same places, and I am tierd of the food at these places. I eat it all the time, plus its not good for you. Its all fried and fattining. I am beginning to see why Im fat.

[psycho*]

btw- my mom is on some stupid "all foods are bad for u" kick, so thats why she never gets anything at the store. She even thinks that fruit is bad for you.

[sex ees gud]

shrinks aren't evil at all. I have wonderful friends that listen to me when i'm down, but there's only so much they can do. You aren't paying shrinks to be your friend. That's not it at all. I go to my therapist once every 2 weeks now. Why? Because shrinks have gone to college for these kinds of things and are more qualified to deal with mental health problems, it's not fair to dump all this on your friends and expect them to help you get better or much less expect yourself to get better when you don't even fully understand what's going on inside you.

Consider my situation. If you were a real life friend to me and i came to you telling you that i hear voices in my head and i still see my dead girlfriend, what would you do? This is why i'm in therapy. Therapists are wonderful.

[psycho*]

I would actually be a friend and talk to you. I would not laugh at you, ignore you, or make fun of you. Unlike my friends, I actually care about people and their problems. I should be a shrink, but seeing as how I hate them, I have changed my area of study. Anyway, I have come to the conclusion that I have no "real friends" there is no one at home to talk to and the people I hang out with regularly have left me for prettier, smarter people with better pesonalities. Im pretty much alone, which is why I began to get depressed two years ago and started cutting. I am hoping that doesn't happen, but I have come very close over the last couple of months. Well, enough of my endless rambling. I hate myself and theres nothing y'all can do about it.

[jamers]

en79 said:

Sounds like you have an eating disorder. You need to talk to your doctor immediately! Your eating disorder is nothing to be ashamed of. It needs to be addressed and dealt with.

[Skylarking]

When are you moving out? Do you have a job? I highly suggest you take your life into your own hands. You don't need to rely on your parents anymore. My parents don't go shopping often either, so I know, it can suck. Your dad seems pretty cool though. Ask him to buy some stuff for you. I suggst rice. You can buy it in bulk, it's healthy, and easy to prepare. Since you're a vegetarian, you'll need your protein as well. The best way to do that is to buy bulk dried beans. Very inexpensive too. If you don't like the water at your house, buy a water filter. One you have right in your jug of water. If you don't have a job, get one.

Also, doctors and therapists aren't that scary. It's their job to listen to you and help you. You may need to look around before you find one that helps, but it'll be worth it.

[psycho*]

Yeah, their JOB. I do have a job. Its on Sundays at church. It pays really well, plus I work during special services and meetings.


and they r evil.

[Phobic of Tragedy]

I hate these help threads where every retort to the advice given is an "oh, no, that won't work". Next time, just smack a "Pity Party" warning into the subject line or something.

Stop whining.

If you have a job, use your money to get food. GO WITH YOUR MOM TO THE STORE, and pick out your own stuff, and then cook for yourself. I'd assume you know how to cook if you're 18, and planning to be out on your own soon. If you can't go with your mom, drive. If you can't drive, walk. If it's too far to walk, find a bus. If there's no bus around you, call a friend who can drive, and offer a few bucks for gas, and if you can't do that, there's always taxis. Though I highly doubt there's no buses around you. If you can't afford this, you need a better job.

e·vil
adj. e·vil·er, e·vil·est

1. Morally bad or wrong; wicked: an evil tyrant.
2. Causing ruin, injury, or pain; harmful: the evil effects of a poor diet.
3. Characterized by or indicating future misfortune; ominous: evil omens.
4. Bad or blameworthy by report; infamous: an evil reputation.
5. Characterized by anger or spite; malicious: an evil temper.

Saying that all psychiatrists are evil is using the same logic as saying that all people with blue eyes are evil. Not only do I have a strong feeling that you're misusing, or at least loosely using, the term, but I've decided that you're rather close minded, and sort of getting on my nerves. You're 18. Please act like it.

[Skylarking]

A job once a week may pay well for those few hours (I'm assuming it's nursery work or something of the sort) but if you're living on your own, you'll need a much better job than that.

Also, you may not want to see a doctor about your eating disorder, but you probably should if you don't get eating soon. And you know what? You're 18. You can see a doctor on your own. You can keep it confidential from your parents.

And another thing. Not eating isn't the way to loose weight. Your body goes into starvation mode (as already stated) and your metabolism gets screwed up as well, so good luck loosing or keeping weight off later in life if you continue to not eat.

Also, it's really frustrating to try to help you when you just reject advice given. All of the advice here is very usefull. Instead of thinking of ways it couldn't work, open your eyes to them. You have th chance to turn your life around right now.

Good luck.

[psycho*]

ill think about it. like i told u on IM, im thinking about seeing a therapist at church. at the moment, i have no car, so i cannot go to a doctor by myslef. i should be getting a car soon. as i said, i will talk to my best friend and get his opinion and then i will make up my mind. maybe he will go with me. thanks for your help.