ugh...i'm at a loss

[sex ees gud]

last week i got very pissed with my therapist for leaving me alone for 2 weeks to go to France. well....i sent her an e-mail and this is what it read:

when do you get back from france? i don't like this. You are trying to push me away from you, aren't you? That's why you only want to see me every 2 weeks. And my mother, the *****, doesn't even want me to see you anymore, and she wants me to stop the medication. You all need to die immediately. You guys need to stop reading my brain and just stop being such ****ing *****es. My parents need to be set on fire....and so do you....i like talking to you, but the decision to like you or not is out of my jurisdiction. I'm sorry. I will continue to see you and see if you can maybe find a way to help me without me helping you, but beyond that, i will pray for your death.

i still stand by what i said in the e-mail.....but my friend said it was dumb to send her that because it's not the first time i've threatened to kill soemone....and last time i almost got arrested for it....well this was her reply:

I returned from France just a few hours ago and this is the first time I
have checked my e-mail in two weeks. I am not trying to push you away and
I will talk to you about this this week.

now i'm afraid i'm going to get into trouble. I mean...i completely meant what i said to her....she wanted me to be truthful....but now i'm really depressed and not to mention extremely tired...

[ava]

if all else fails, you could claim to have been drunk when you typed it.

[sex ees gud]

lol. i may do that.

i just hope i don't get into trouble. i had 3 cops show up at my house last time and it took everything my mom had to not let them arrest me, even though i'd threatened to kill her. I don't think it'll work a 2nd time. I hate myself at times.......

[Jewbread]

there is a very simple solution to this problem, arrive at next meeting with one of these

[psycho*]

u have a very interesting view on things scott. anyway, the secular part of me says to agree with ava. but the Christian part of me is telling me to tell you to talk to her about this. Just go to her office and say "Look, Im sorry about that email, even though I ment the things I said. I was just hurt that you left and I felt abandoned." or something like that. Maybe she does want to talk to you and not get you into trouble.

[sex ees gud]

there is a very simple solution to this problem, arrive at next meeting with one of these

i actually really want one of those!!!

[psycho*]

lol.