ugglesworth >.<;

[saleen]

i just need to vent.

urgg. i feel so loww.

a week ago my mom saw my cuts when she was looking to see what time it is. badd. deep cuts. so now i'm in trouble.

my father, my REAL birth father, is back in townn...i havent seen/spoken/been in any kind of contact with him in 4 years. and the last time i did, it was not funn.

there's a new custody battle starting in my family again. over me though. my mom wants joint custody of me, but she didnt even conisder asking me my opinion on it at first, until she learned she HAD to ask me. i'd really rather not have her have custody, but if i say no, i'm afraid of what will happen.

we have just found out, there is a very good chance i am bipolar as i am already showing some of the symptoms, and both my parents are bipolar. i'm really hoping i'm not.

and now i can't cut anymore, well i could i'd just need a new knife, well it just seems...overwhelming. i've been feeling more and more suicidal it seems, from holding everything in.

guys, i just need prayer or a hug or something like that. that's all i need right now. thankks.

[Soulfire79]

*hugs* I just prayed. I hope things get better for you.

[saleen]

thankks

"everything's wrong but i'm feeling a whole lot better"

my new quote of the week lol.

[Skylarking]

*hugs*

Once this summer my mom pulled my sleeve up to write her phone number on my arm. I nearly threw up afterwards.

[Phobic of Tragedy]

My mom has done the same thing to write down a phone number. Except she was more concerned with the fact that she couldn't write on my arm than she was with the cuts, so it's okay.

*hugs* Hope things get better for you, Brenna.

[Skylarking]

Ah, your mom sounds horrible Laila. My mom just asked where they came from, and I kinda froze up and didn't answer. We've not spoken of it since.

So are you not looking forward to seeing your father Brenna?

[Sarah]

Awww Brenna.. *hugs*

I'm sorry..

And I would say PM me if you want to talk, but we already PM each other alot, so yeah. ^_^

*hugs Brenna again*

[saleen]

yay i get hugs ^_^

i was lucky, i didn't have to see my dad at all. my mom decided now was not a good time lol.

proof of how stupid i am: i tried overdosing on mulit-vitamins. YES multi-vitamins. i didnt realize until i was at 21 what they were lol, haha. i can laugh at it now, cuzz i realized how stupid i really am for doing that lol.

[gopher]

I bet you're really healthy now.

[saleen]

GopherGirl said:

I bet you're really healthy now.

well obviously lol

[Skylarking]

Well, too much of one certain vitamin isn't great for you either. Won't kill you or anything, might just make you sick. Though if you plan on ODing on 21 of most over the counter pills, you'll get the same effect. Not that I'm encouraging you or anything. <3

[saleen]

too much of anything isn't good for you.

yeah, i'm not feeling 100%, but that's gonna be kinda a given.

yess! i am hearted ^_^

[gopher]

.Br said:

too much of anything isn't good for you.

Death by chocolate. That'd be a great way to die.