Post by Phobic of Tragedy on May 13, 2005 16:34:58 GMT -5
My best friend commited suicide 4 years ago on the 18th. I just got the invitation or whatever you want to call it to the memorial service. It hadn't really hit me that it's coming up on 4 years until I read that, and now it's just hit hard. He's had memorials yearly before, but since it's his grandparents rather than his parents that hold them, they were held at churches local to his grandparents who lived about 2 hours away from me. So I never got to go to one. And I couldn't handle going to his funeral, so I didn't get to that either. This year it's being held about 30 minutes from where I live, because his grandparents have moved closer, and if all else fails, I'm going to have my boyfriend take me there. I need to go this year, now that I have the chance. I think that this has been the year that I've missed him and thought of him most since he's been gone. But...it's really hitting me again...and I don't know what to do. =[ In other words, I need a hug.
