ugh

[sex ees gud]

i need a couple of hugs and an obnoxious amount of dro.

if you want to know why, read my LJ

[hoarpumpkin]

*hug*
I know

[Phobic of Tragedy]

(hug)

(goes to read LJ)

[hoarpumpkin]

I already read it... I can't relate much and therefore end up with little to say, but I can always listen.

Whenever you write something and IM me, I read every word of it, even though it might only get a single word or emoticon

[sex ees gud]

thanks so much ::glomps hoar:: that means a lot

[Phobic of Tragedy]

I can also relate to quite a bit of it (as far as the general feelings go...I haven't been tested for/diagnosed with anything more than clinical depression so far), and like Hoar, I'm always around to listen, even if I can't always necessarily help. My AIM screen name is xdarkestxwingsx if you ever want to IM me and vent/*****/just talk/whatever. (hugs) I hope things start getting better.

[sex ees gud]

thanks. i hope i don't need to get on meds...my aunt is on schizo meds and she has no personality, she's like a zombie. i don't want to be a zombie

[Phobic of Tragedy]

Ugh...yeah...that doesn't sound fun. Could it possibly have to do with her dose, or is it just the kind of medicine that will do that no matter what?

[Skylarking]

*hugs*

I read on your LJ. I always real your LJ, and I have msn if you ever want to vent anything to me.

[sex ees gud]

i have such great e-friends ::hugs to everyone::

[sex ees gud]

i woke up this morning totally hoping to feel more at ease about all the ****, but...i feel the same extreme confusion and...ah...i still don't know what to do...

[sex ees gud]

2:11 pm. still 2 hours of work to go. and strangely enough it seems like i've barely been here today. My mind, with the adderall, is going like 5,000 mph, and that's saying something because adderall usually gives me a fairly crystal clear thinking process.

I was searching the internet about this personality tset i took. The MMPI, and found the sections that stood out in my answers, what Dr. Bird and i talked about:

-Scale 6: Paranoia (Pa) - This scale was originally developed to identify patients who were judged to have paranoid symptoms such as ideas of reference, feelings of persecution, grandiose self-concepts, suspiciousness, excessive sensitivity, and rigid opinions and attitudes. Persons who score high on this scale usually have paranoid symptoms. All 40 items in the original scale have been maintained in the MMPI-2

-Scale 8: Schizophrenia (Sc) - This scale was originally developed to identify patients diagnosed as schizophrenic. All 78 items in the original scale have been maintained in the MMPI-2. The items in this scale assess a wide variety of content areas, including bizarre thought processes and peculiar perceptions, social alienation, poor familial relationships, difficulties in concentration and impulse control, lack of deep interests, disturbing questions of self-worth and self-identity, and sexual difficulties. Misinterpretations of reality, delusions, and hallucinations may be present. Ambivalent or constricted emotional responsiveness is common. Behavior may be withdrawn, aggressive, or bizarre. Scale 8 is probably the single most difficult scale to interpret in isolation because of the variety of factors that can result in an elevated score. Scores on this scale are related to age and to race. Adolescents and college students often obtain T-scores in a range of 50 to 60, perhaps reflecting the turmoil associated with that period in life. Black subjects, particularly males, tend to score higher than white subjects, perhaps suggesting the alienation and social estrangement felt by many blacks.


those were the two 'of concern' to her. hmmm. She had a big book on it that had more elaborated answers for every combination of whatever you could think of, and it was amazing how....dead on....it was. phew...anyways...yea

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