Post by hoarpumpkin on Oct 22, 2005 9:33:56 GMT -5
I seem to remember making a thread like this long ago at some point, but I may also be wrong. At any rate, I feel the need to get these out.
I know they're just dreams (well, nightmares), but they're so unsettling... and they really creep me out because they mirror the truth so strongly.
Last night was the *second* time I've dreamt of charlie attempting to rape me. Both times it was oral sex performed on me. The first time, We were hanging around, and I woke up naked with him and he said something about doing it to me and I freaked out; I'm like "I didn't consent! I was asleep! I was asleep!" and ran away, and his face was all distorted and horrifying... and I just kept running
Last night's was less disturbing and more disturbing in other respects. It started with him cornering me in my closet and trying to do it through my undies... and I got away and then I'm like in some bar that Jay rented out and we started making out and we get on my bed, and we're still just making out but we're definitely intending to have sex, and then Charlie gets up off the floor and sees us and runs away, but then he comes back and like threatens to set things on fire. And Jay's like "you're worried, don't be worried! you can't enjoy it if you're worried!" and I'm like "I don't want him to set me on fire!" And then the next thing I know it's like a freakin apocolyps and charlie's in my house like threatening me and my family and pets and Jay, and I'm trying to kill him but it's impossible. Then I go out looking for Jay and he's always got febreze (in the dream, not IRL), so I go to a supermarket and all the bottles are only half full at best, and so I filled one up and went searching. But I woke up before I could find him...
charlie hasn't actually raped me, but they're so true in sense of him making unwanted advances and thinking it's all consensual... ugh
I need to get out of my head
I know they're just dreams (well, nightmares), but they're so unsettling... and they really creep me out because they mirror the truth so strongly.
Last night was the *second* time I've dreamt of charlie attempting to rape me. Both times it was oral sex performed on me. The first time, We were hanging around, and I woke up naked with him and he said something about doing it to me and I freaked out; I'm like "I didn't consent! I was asleep! I was asleep!" and ran away, and his face was all distorted and horrifying... and I just kept running
Last night's was less disturbing and more disturbing in other respects. It started with him cornering me in my closet and trying to do it through my undies... and I got away and then I'm like in some bar that Jay rented out and we started making out and we get on my bed, and we're still just making out but we're definitely intending to have sex, and then Charlie gets up off the floor and sees us and runs away, but then he comes back and like threatens to set things on fire. And Jay's like "you're worried, don't be worried! you can't enjoy it if you're worried!" and I'm like "I don't want him to set me on fire!" And then the next thing I know it's like a freakin apocolyps and charlie's in my house like threatening me and my family and pets and Jay, and I'm trying to kill him but it's impossible. Then I go out looking for Jay and he's always got febreze (in the dream, not IRL), so I go to a supermarket and all the bottles are only half full at best, and so I filled one up and went searching. But I woke up before I could find him...
charlie hasn't actually raped me, but they're so true in sense of him making unwanted advances and thinking it's all consensual... ugh
I need to get out of my head
