noooooooo!!!!!!!

[EyesofanAngel20]

ok. last night i had a horible dream! i dreamnt that it was prom night and i was waiting for philip to pick me up. well, he was suppossed to be at my house at four but at six i was still waiting. i tried calling him but he wouldn't answer. it kept getting later and later. finally at eight (the time the prom started) i began to cry. i cried and cried and cried. then i cried a litle more. he never did show up. the next morning i called him again and he answered. i asked him "where were you last night?" and he said "I felt like God was telling me not to go." and i screamed at him and hung up on him.

a couple of weeks ago i had a dream that I was going to pick him up for prom and i was running sooo late. it was eight o' clock when i got to his house (which is two and a half hours away from prom!) and by the time we got to prom everthing was pretty much over.

i guess i have a fear of being late for prom...or that philip will back out at the last minute!!!!

[alaska chic]

aw

[Skylarking]

To dream that you are late, denotes your fear of change and your ambivalence about seizing an opportunity. You may feel unready, unworthy, or unsupported in your current circumstances. Additionally, you may be overwhelmed or conflicted with decisions about your future.

[EyesofanAngel20]

wow. i am afraid of change. i hate changes...esp. unexpected ones. i tend to plan MONTHS ahead for a small event and I have to make sure EVERYTHING is perfect. Im totally not ready for prom. I am, but then again, im not. I dont know how things will go over with philip. hes not a touchy-feely emotional kinda guy, so im afraid that he won't want to slow dance with me....WHICH IS WHY YOU GO TO PROM IN THE FIRST PLACE!!! sry, had to get that out. Im so not worthy of going with him. i dont meet his expectations and im terrified that somethings gonna go wrong. Im definately not supported with this thing. Like today, I called him to discuss when he was picking me up, where we were taking pictures, what bout...flower he wanted, and the crosage i prefer. He just said ok about fifty times, then said bye and hung up. GAH! sry, but i need to vent.