Post by sex ees gud on May 5, 2005 14:10:31 GMT -5
i've been told i'm 'painfully blunt' in times i shouldn't be. i don't see it. One of my friends is always depressed, like to the point of being committed for a week and she never tries to get better. here's a post she made in her livejournal:
I feel so alone, so helpless and no one cares. my shrink said I should stop locking things inside of me and start telling someone and when I start to do that they all leave me. they say they dont care.I just want someone to love me to always be there for me. someone to know when I just need a hug from needing to get someone (such as consler) to help me. I stoped going to lunch to afraid to be around any one. I dont feel like eating, or talking. I guess I'm falling deeper into this depresstion. ok here is my confestion...I want the help, I want to feel better. but as much as I want the help I dont know how to get it. I wish I had someone close to me that will stick with me no matter what. no matter how many relappes I go though before I can say I'm better. where do I find freinds like that. well another confestion today I had every intittion of going home and taking my own life today I have been stashing away some pills for some time. the only thing that keep me from doing it was my shucky darn dang brother was home.. lucky for my family I guess. why cant any of you see whats really going on. why cant any of you try try to stand by my side though this.. I would do it for you in a heart beat.why do I have to be so alone..so shucky darn dang alone...
here's my reply:
Lori, i love you. you are my friend. but i have to agree with Nathan. You have hundreds of friends here to listen. Who care. You are the one who is leaving us, preventing us from helping you. We can't help if we don't truely know what's going on, and even if we do, we can only try our best. You are alone because you won't let yourself get close to anyone. And i've said it in every reply, but you don't want to listen to that because you know it's true. From your posts and from you in real life the only thing that you are showing is self pity, self loathing, apathy and distance. Lori, if you want to get better, you need to actually start trying, because you haven't done a thing. No one can MAKE you better, not your friends, not your therapist, not ridgeview. YOU have to make YOURSELF better and we can help you along the way. That's what therapy is. The ASSISTANCE of getting better. You just want someone to do it for you. You're lazy. I am too. But you can't run around expecting people to fix you and then wonder why they aren't doing anything. You aren't alone at all. You are making yourself alone. We all do care. You just want us to pity you, because that's how you feel better.
Ask yourself whether you truly want to get better or not. Because i've tried to help. And i'll continue. But no matter how much i listen to you and try to help you, all you do is whine and complain saying that no one cares. HELLO?! 'no one cares'? what, in order for someone to care do we have to drop to your feet and kiss your shoes? LORI, we are here to help you however we can, but YOU are pushing yourself away from us. Now unless you figure out what you really want to do, there's not much anyone can do. We can't read your mind. We can't 'fix' you. We can only HELP! I agree with Nathan, i'm sick of this bull****. What good are you doing to yourself? Nothing. You are so caught up in your own self pity that you can't see everyone around you lending a God shucky darn dang hand, and then you ignore it and complain that no one cares. You are creating your depression. Your life is not as bad as you think it is. Sorry.
I feel so alone, so helpless and no one cares. my shrink said I should stop locking things inside of me and start telling someone and when I start to do that they all leave me. they say they dont care.I just want someone to love me to always be there for me. someone to know when I just need a hug from needing to get someone (such as consler) to help me. I stoped going to lunch to afraid to be around any one. I dont feel like eating, or talking. I guess I'm falling deeper into this depresstion. ok here is my confestion...I want the help, I want to feel better. but as much as I want the help I dont know how to get it. I wish I had someone close to me that will stick with me no matter what. no matter how many relappes I go though before I can say I'm better. where do I find freinds like that. well another confestion today I had every intittion of going home and taking my own life today I have been stashing away some pills for some time. the only thing that keep me from doing it was my shucky darn dang brother was home.. lucky for my family I guess. why cant any of you see whats really going on. why cant any of you try try to stand by my side though this.. I would do it for you in a heart beat.why do I have to be so alone..so shucky darn dang alone...
here's my reply:
Lori, i love you. you are my friend. but i have to agree with Nathan. You have hundreds of friends here to listen. Who care. You are the one who is leaving us, preventing us from helping you. We can't help if we don't truely know what's going on, and even if we do, we can only try our best. You are alone because you won't let yourself get close to anyone. And i've said it in every reply, but you don't want to listen to that because you know it's true. From your posts and from you in real life the only thing that you are showing is self pity, self loathing, apathy and distance. Lori, if you want to get better, you need to actually start trying, because you haven't done a thing. No one can MAKE you better, not your friends, not your therapist, not ridgeview. YOU have to make YOURSELF better and we can help you along the way. That's what therapy is. The ASSISTANCE of getting better. You just want someone to do it for you. You're lazy. I am too. But you can't run around expecting people to fix you and then wonder why they aren't doing anything. You aren't alone at all. You are making yourself alone. We all do care. You just want us to pity you, because that's how you feel better.
Ask yourself whether you truly want to get better or not. Because i've tried to help. And i'll continue. But no matter how much i listen to you and try to help you, all you do is whine and complain saying that no one cares. HELLO?! 'no one cares'? what, in order for someone to care do we have to drop to your feet and kiss your shoes? LORI, we are here to help you however we can, but YOU are pushing yourself away from us. Now unless you figure out what you really want to do, there's not much anyone can do. We can't read your mind. We can't 'fix' you. We can only HELP! I agree with Nathan, i'm sick of this bull****. What good are you doing to yourself? Nothing. You are so caught up in your own self pity that you can't see everyone around you lending a God shucky darn dang hand, and then you ignore it and complain that no one cares. You are creating your depression. Your life is not as bad as you think it is. Sorry.
