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Post by EyesofanAngel20 on Apr 16, 2005 16:37:54 GMT -5
i really am. theres pretty much nothing im good at. i cant play any musical insturment, i suck at sports, im not artistically talented, i cant dance, i pretty much cant do anything. why am i even here? im not doing anyone any good. sry, but im depressed. i should have killed myslef when i had the chance but now its to late becuse Im "healed" from depression and I would DIE if anyone found out that i was depressed and even THOUGHT about cutting...
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Post by stardust15 on Apr 16, 2005 18:14:33 GMT -5
Hey, it's ok. Don't measure your worth in what "things" you may or may not be good at, but rather at the impact you have on other peoples' lives. There's more to life than music, sports and art!  God knows that you're not good at any of those thngs you mentioned; but EVERYONE is good at SOMETHING. Do you like to encourage people? Or are you helpful around your house, school and/or work? Can your smile brighten someone's day? You are not worthless, you maybe just haven't found out what exactly you're good at. Try new things, be open to new areas of life. |
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Post by EyesofanAngel20 on Apr 16, 2005 19:07:22 GMT -5
no, instead of helping people i make them hate me. i fail at school ALL the time. im not passing anything. i cant clean up my room because i never have enough time. i dont have any friends. no real ones any way. just peeps i sit with at church...their not my real friends becuase they hate me. no one likes me and theres no reason for me to live. really, name one reason for me to keep on living. i cant think of one.
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Post by Skylarking on Apr 16, 2005 23:05:58 GMT -5
I know that feeling oh so well. You may not think you have an impact on anyones life, or that no one cares, but you're misinformed. You're also a teen.
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Post by EyesofanAngel20 on Apr 17, 2005 10:25:45 GMT -5
im 18, so im considered an adult. name one person that ive "impacted" and name one person that cares.
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Post by hoarpumpkin on Apr 17, 2005 11:29:34 GMT -5
You don't just impact someone significantly without making any effort.
You wanna feel like you're important? Go to your local soup kitchen and volunteer. Go to your local dog shelter and ask how you can help. Look into habitat for humanity. Look for opportunities through your church. There are so many things you can do to help others that don't require any experience or education or whatever. I'm sorry, but there's no excuse to sit around feeling sorry for yourself for not feeling "important".
Getting out and doing something, furthermore, will make you feel better anyway.
Plus, everyone impacts someone else. You might just not realize it.
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Post by EyesofanAngel20 on Apr 18, 2005 14:59:48 GMT -5
i cant. Im "not allowed" im not allowed to walk to the mail box without getting permission. when im not at church (if im lucky im allowed to go there, like, once a month) im at home doing school...ON THE WEEKEDNS. Plus, there isnt a shelter around here, and the nearest soup kitchen is about an hour and a half away. My life totally sucks, and ive tried to talk to my parents about gettting more freedom and maybe play a sport or something, but they wont let me. I JUST WANT TO BE FREE FOR FIVE MINUTES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am about to have a heart attack...i really am. my chest is hurting so bad and my heart is racing a million miles an hour.
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Post by Phobic of Tragedy on Apr 18, 2005 15:08:12 GMT -5
If you're 18, technically they don't have more control than you're allowing them to have over you anymore.
Go take a walk. Get outside. Even work on your schoolwork in your backyard or something, sunlight is proven to help with depression.
And this isn't meant to sound mean, so don't take it the wrong way, but stop feeling sorry for yourself, hun. Make a list of good things in your life, if it comes to that. The more you allow yourself to feel these feelings, the more it will affect you. Stop blaming it on your parenst, and get out and do something. You said you're considered an adult now, it's legal for you to just leave. And I'm sure you won't get into too much "trouble" for helping someone.
Editing to add: Not feeling sorry for yourself is, I guess, something that you have to train yourself to do, but it definately helps...or at least has helped me. Even I'm still trying to get over self-pity, but I'm getting there slowly. It will never be perfect, but nothing's perfect...
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Post by EyesofanAngel20 on Apr 19, 2005 10:08:53 GMT -5
Thanks. That was nice. I cant take a walk becuase I never have time. Plus, my neighborhood has some strange people in it, so my mom doesn't want me to go walk by myslef, and Heaven forbid SHE get out and exercise. I cant do my school work outside becuase I have dvd's to watch and I dont have a dvd player outside. So, here I am stuck in this little bitty room, with no one to talk to and nothing to do. I have tried to make a list of the stuff im good at and whats good about me, but I always come up blank. Well, thanks for your help.
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Post by Phobic of Tragedy on Apr 19, 2005 10:20:05 GMT -5
Okay, so take a break, and go and sit outside just to think or try to write your list of good things for 10 minutes. It's not like you have to sit out there for a lifetime to feel better.
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Post by EyesofanAngel20 on Apr 19, 2005 12:03:52 GMT -5
I would love to go outside, but Im a month behind in school and I am going to finish at the end of July as it is. Now, probably August. I have to go to college this fall, so I can get out of my house, so that adds to the pressure. I dont get spring break, I don't get summer vacation, im lucky to get christmas day off. I am too stressed, and every time I tell my parents, they don't listen. In fact, they actually make me do MORE school work. I havn't cleaned my room in about a year, becuase I never have time. Its a mess, and I HATE when my room's a mess. Its driving me CRAZY. Im going to wind up in a mental institution and its going to be my parents' fault becuase they WONT LISTEN TO ME.
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Post by Phobic of Tragedy on Apr 19, 2005 15:36:08 GMT -5
1. Colleges like well rounded people. When applying, they're going to want to know your extracurriculars, things like volunteering and joining clubs or playing sports. Not having any of those things won't look particularly appealing on a college application.
2. Stop blaming your parents. You obvioulsy have the time to get online, so you must have some free time. Instead of getting online next time, go outside! Do something!
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Post by godchick244 on Apr 19, 2005 16:06:33 GMT -5
This is sooo not to be mean but get over yourself. life is too short to be complaining or be depressed. you may be behind in school but work harder and the sooner you get finished the sooner you will have more fun in your life. as for people not likeing you, i really can't say. i dont know you. i can say this though, try changing. everyway you act do the opposite. if your mean be nice. if your flirty, stop. if your annoying and can't stop talkin, STOP.(sry my friend is like that and it drives me CRAZY)and the biggest thing ,that i know bugs me and i am probably not the only one in the world who has a friend like this, if you like to call attention to yourself cuz u feel a lil left out...............................................STOP my friend natalie does that and it bugs the heck out of me. we will be talking about something and she will be like" Oh i am the same way" and i have known her for like 7 or 8 years and she is NOTHING like that. everyone knows it to. course if your not anything like that and your actually a shy person, talk out more. get people to notice you by just talkin to them. but not too much. hopefully that will work, but dont complain. if your having a problem then fix it by changing the situation
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Post by Phobic of Tragedy on Apr 19, 2005 17:04:50 GMT -5
as for people not likeing you, i really can't say. i dont know you. i can say this though, try changing. everyway you act do the opposite. if your mean be nice. if your flirty, stop. if your annoying and can't stop talkin, STOP.(sry my friend is like that and it drives me CRAZY)and the biggest thing ,that i know bugs me and i am probably not the only one in the world who has a friend like this, if you like to call attention to yourself cuz u feel a lil left out... STOPcourse if your not anything like that and your actually a shy person, talk out more. get people to notice you by just talkin to them. but not too much. hopefully that will work, but dont complain. if your having a problem then fix it by changing the situation Being more outgoing is good advice, if she's not already outgoing. However, telling someone to change who they are; start acting the complete opposite way they normally do is *not* good advice. That's just going to set her up for more trouble. |
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Post by EyesofanAngel20 on Apr 20, 2005 9:25:08 GMT -5
ok, that WAS kinda mean. Ive already changed everything about me to fit in at church. it totally hasnt worked. and I cant just stop being annoying and talking all the time (which i totally do) and i cant stop any time i want and find something good about myslef. Im not suppossed to be online. I have to get on the internet for school research, so I sneak on here and type like, one or two messages a day when i can. My parents dont want me to have any fun, its like living in a prison...except theres a cat. the minute they found out i had a diary, the took it and read it! I cant have any privacy at all.
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God knows that you're not good at any of those thngs you mentioned; but EVERYONE is good at SOMETHING. Do you like to encourage people? Or are you helpful around your house, school and/or work? Can your smile brighten someone's day? You are not worthless, you maybe just haven't found out what exactly you're good at. Try new things, be open to new areas of life. 
